I'm not a smoker. I tried a cigarette once when I was about 17 and I looked like a tit. I don't think smoking is big or clever, but i fucking love passive smoking. My mother has always smoked, it was the way I knew she was around when i was younger, that conforting smell drifting through the house. I went to a gig the other day and I missed that choking layer of smoke floating just above the sweat smell and the constant fear that you're going to get your arms singed. If I have a bloke over who smokes I keep the used ashtray next to my bed for weeks. Watching people roll up always facinates me and I and I still get annoyed when all my smoking friends leave me inside to watch the table alone down the pub. I also love the way that in old films, slowly poisoning yourself looks so cool. Its an ironic but beautiful art.
