People grow up 2 fucking fast. I always felt cheated out of childhood coz it never felt like "Stand By Me", or an Enid Blyton story. I've always been the same age, only my body's changed and my vocabulary. This basically means that I'm now just a kid with nice tits and I'll fuck because it feels good.
Who wants love, or excess money or a steady job or friends who "know you"?
I'm young I dont need those things now, i hope I never do. If I don't have my fun now it'll be too late. I have my whole life to develop morals. I've never believed in love, I think it's just a rumour that got out of hand and people started beliving in it because they needed to. Love is just a mixture of lust, friendship and having some commonground (which is usually an equally strong desperation not to be alone). As for money i don't understand the drive for it, I just want to be able to meet my outgoings; food, clothes, bills etc. I'm never going to have to support a family. I wont allow myself to get to far into a mundane routine of life. I know its necessary, I am realistic but I've promised myself to not stay in a job longer than 5 years. My worst nightmare is that I'm going to be in the same house, in the same grey town, in the same job, just doing the same thing every week. What's the point. I'd just be waiting to die. I used to work with people like that. All they have is the dream of retirement and by the time I retire, they'll have probabaly raised the age to '150 years or death'. Old people disgust me slightly. Not all of them but there's a type. I never want to get like that. I may just kill myself as soon as I get the urge to buy a tartan trolly or I start to think of young people as another species. As for the last one, I don't want anyone to know me. I don't even know myself.
I realy need to get away from the mother before i become convinced I'm 13. Bring on Septemeber.