feel the magic

I won Defenders of The Earth on ebay. So that's 31/90 of the programmes I've gotta get. Read that they're releasing series 1 of The Racoons on DVD in September. Can not wait.
Been tidying my room today but have just made more mess. its always weird coz I go through all my old stuff like letters from my dad and stuff from old boyfriends and bits of tacky jewlery that I wore as a kid. Takes me so long because I sit down and read every bit of paper or look at every photo. its strange how the only physical remains of a massive part of your life can be kept in a tiny box at the back of your wardrobe. Just collecting dust.
Off down the pub now.

So i went to another gig last night with my mate Needle. It was good, i treated myself to the Scrumpy, inevitabley spilt it but then got a free pint. There were a lot of underage people there, made me want to be 17 again just to fit in. Had the most surreal experience coming home that I only remembered this morning. We spent half an hour in some blokes massive shed drinking wine whilst his landlord played us some tunes on his keyboard and re-hung his pictures at angles. It was like something out of one of my weird dreams, but then the next minute we were back on the bus as if nothing had happened.
Spent today feeding Needle and hoping she might leave soon because I had so much to do. She didn't go until 6ish. I attempted to make the mother a cheesecake to distract from the fact I hadn't tidied my room (yes I do feel like a 13 year old), but it turned out shit so I just got her pissed instead.
Told my ex (Ralph) that i missed him. I know i shouldn't have, but surprisingly he seemed to ignore it. Maybe he's finally realised that i'm not going to get back with him. I mean how can I? I've been with 9 other guys behing his back and it's just not fair.